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Oh man i super feel like blogging tooday. after i see sheena's entry too. yeah dunno why i was so upset over all the misunderstandings. I should know that as long as the 20 of us know it ourselves, what others think dont matter at all anymore.
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I totally miss the 18 of them (xept sheena hurhur). Like mad. Yah and true. Everyday we try to go back to our normal lives, but a part of us is still missing the feeling of CSS. Then comes in a msg from one of them, we just smile and get teary eyed all of a sudden. A simple msg like 'how to meet on sat?' will spark off a long sms conversation. I'm trying to forget the moment the post show ended. As that was the saddest moment. But it just cant go away. The tears on yinwei's faces as he took off his glasses. The scrunged up look on sam's face as he tells me he tried to control. The look on teresa meimei's face as she controlled her best but once backstage dropped tears and hugged us saying she ren bu zhu le and she bu de us. The smile at us crying but heart must be paining maomao sitting on the stair toking to lyn-jie etc. The dean, face with tears and wiping them still call me dont cry le. The tears on yang ce's face as she hugged me. The cough of clara as she trembled crying on my shoulders. the hamster covering his mouth and sobbing, totally sparking off a new batch of tears of mine, the BK crying while smiling, wiping while tearing, the $1 after controlling so long finally crying like a baby!! he really like baby. now i think it makes me laugh! so cute. The siew ping squealing while smiling 'hai wo you ku le!' the tears on super cnt see will cry de da ge kenneth's face. The hea breathe heaaa breathe of emily. The chocolate cake filled with our tears. Lyn-jie hugging us and still crying tho she overlooked PSS and saw this happen before. Kerry jie smiling at the stairs looking at us write notes for each other. Yong hua ah yi, smiling and saying us hen mei leh! hen hao hor? jia-yo hor? before a show like mama liddat. Us at wadrobe bu she de leave and writing msgs in out notebooks for each other.
The issue now is about the forum I read. Maybe u all dun read forum and dun notice, so this portion of my blog is of no use. Still I have to get it off mah chest. Teresa meimei. I know you dunno whats going on backstage when ure on stage. but dont dont feel sad when u read that none of us cheer. cos we did and trust me when i say that. when people say that, it not only hurts meimei herself but hurts those the people shoot too. I know cause i'm one. it hurts me to see so many people debating and doubting our personal frenship with the others. why does our personal relationships have to be a topic of discussion, we're basically just normal students. like how will one feel if u tell them ur good fren backstabbed u? n how will one feel when u r doubted whether u are true to ur good fren? how does one ever measure the frenship btwn us. it can only be measured by US.. i rmb sam squeeshing my hand then relaxing to clap. i rmb a lot were holding breathes then let loose. although u really didnt hang out with us much, CSS is ultimately the 20 of us. u are really really appreciated by us too. tho ur mum is pretty strict, we know. so i need time to know u more and get closer to u. and please dont even have a single tinge of feeling that we dun care for you and we are a group of frens u can forget. Dun u ever forget us!! maomao too! tho i told u tat day tat im sorry tat i kinda neglected u and u jokingly said back 'not u neglect me lor is i choose to neglect u! (bhb-ing again hurhur)' i know it must have been a bit painful. im still super sorry. but we're totally NOT against u de n u know that. u know ure well-liked by us can le. recover from ur snake skin soon man! Dean. I ADMIRE u. ure so gonna make it big. hurhur i trust u will. Also. know why we were so for hamster? not only because we're a teeny weeny bit closer to him. We're just like students studying in a super stressful school with only one scholarship. When u lose the chance for the scholarship due to failing a test, u give up. then u cheer on the rest who are still fighting for it. u'll take side of the one who needs it more. 3 of them, we know will definitely succeed without the scholarship. they will still get a way to further their studies well! Hamster just need the scholarship more. They graciously fought well for it, and super graciously gave it up to him who needs it, and felt happy but a bit disappointed over it. They blamed no one. So why are others blaming others? I see the maturity in each and everyone of them. Me being slow to mature in thinking, are super proud of their achievement. I couldnt be that matured at their age. And as expected, the 3 of them recieved their bonus scholarships. hamster's scholarship is the one which is unsure? hmm i dunno anything about anything. But this is my thought. say me fake if u wan. THESE ARE MY WORDS AND MY HEARTFELT THINKING. I'm true to myself.All of you. never give up singing or whatever you do! we'll meet up soon, but i super miss u all now. missing everything i recapped about u all. sighs. msg me often.
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sad again cos i recapped about them. now im painhearted.
nvm. against MJC jia-yo! WOOSH go tpjc!
さあ、うたう。
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For all friends of ours, Sheena and Shermaine,
you are entitled to a 10% discount =DD
For all friends of ours, Sheena and Shermaine,
you are entitled to a 10% discount =DD